My Turmoil (part 1) SeXStoRY

I am in turmoil. My life has taken a turn that I never expected. I can share it with no one . Its my secret but I cant contain it . I am at a loss as to what to do . My life , my comfortable ,privileged life is now not enough . I dream, I fantasise , I crave a woman I have a straight relationship . I love my man and my c***dren . Yet I am putting it all at risk because of my need to be with a woman. I dont know why I should feel this need . Sex with my man is good . He brings me to orgasm with major results . My body becomes engulfed in spasms as wave after wave of ecstasy flow through me . I masturbate when I feel the need , as any woman does . Lately I have taken to watching porn and found myself enjoying the lesbian sites. As a result ,I tried new methods to reach orgasm . The results have been something truly amazing . If this is what I can achieve alone by watching women , what can I achieve with a woman exciting me . AS I write this I am building up to a state of ecstasy. So much so that it is becoming difficult for me to continue. I need to stop a while . My cunt is screaming out for play . I know that it will not take long for my body to experience the high , that pitch so out of earthly reach that I cant believe my senses. I have to leave my writing .The call is too strong.