You and I, part 1 SeXStoRY

Intro I had to write this story or I would explode, been thinking of it for a whole week or more (as u know, I have no experiences (still, but not for long), but in this story I will explain what I felt and my profile will b more clear to everyone; and everything is true except real action, his name and home town)… When I signed up to xhamster (as mslavko1904) few months ago, found one guy who’s profile impressed me a lot. I send him an invitation, he accepted and we started to chat. He was interesting, and I felt him from the beginning, though he said my vids are strangely addicted (wrote him – strangely?? is an odd choice of word for a native speaker…felt like a circus freak), but we continued our chat (sexy chat; clips exchange; talk…). Soon I started to feel deeper emotions, and yes, I fell in love for the first time ever into a guy, though he is quite older than me, on another continent, with complicated life (like mine). Lets call him Bill. He is a nice guy, looking sexy for his age (mid 50ies; yes, that surprised me too, but was never into twinks), gentle though real guy (very hard to find his type), drinking beer but emotional…he is very easy guy to fall in love to. We had great time, clips that we exchanged were so hot (me eating my cum after we had sexy chat; what can I say…), but feelings became stronger and stronger. In one moment of passion I’ve deleted my profile and all clips and all pics (including those from summer vacation where I fucked myself with…but hey, that’s a subject for another story ;). Been thinking bout him in that period and deloved him in a sexual way, but still had and have feeling of friendship (though in this story will be sex between 2 of us, u must know that this story is a sort of a mixture of my emotions for him) so I contacted him (just said: hey, so u cant get enough of porn do u?) and we became friends again. We talked still relatively often, his situation became complicated, mine was standing still, but I felt our friendship is becoming too diluted (when we had sex chat he was available and talkative, but when became friends this changed a lot). He helped me to open up, and influenced me in many ways and for that I will be grateful but I explained to him that I need friend in a 100% department not superficial one (have superficial friends offline and I don’t need them in here; I was comfortable enough with him to open myself completely, without barriers, without acting, stood completely naked before him, without any fear or shame), but felt neglected and alone in our friendship. So, I told him that (and there were more signs that he didn’t think of me in a way that I needed). To short this long introduction, I blocked him, deleted his contact data, deleted all mails and chat, deleted everything though he didn’t want that. Yes, I am a hurricane sometimes (trouble if u want) and burning bridges is something I do best. I was in a state of shock when saw his comment on my profile: thank you (after I uploaded my vid with Fred and Ginger, since I didn’t want to explain him what Ginger is; felt like my b*****r watched my clip…) and how could I resist to him? I send him mail (thank God for restoring gmail contacts since he is visible only for his friends now, and he didn’t accepted my friend invitation still…) and we started to talk, again. I killed our friendship 2 times (left him Like a canceled flight; An empty train running through the night; An orphan c***d; A broken shoe = A. Lennox – Loneliness; but I felt in the same way), and still, he is the closest person in my life (except gf, but that also changed – now have a friend who changed everything, turned me on like no one bfore, named my toy also). All the time we were distant I felt him, not in a sexual way, but cared for him, though we were parted (like in Chris Rea - I Can Hear Your Heartbeat; yes, music is very important to me, and he never visited my favorite songs on tagged, shame on u ;-). We r still talking these days (rarely), though I think it is not the same, seems time has to heal our wounds. But, I think he is great guy, not a perfect one (well, I am not a perfect also, have a temper and personality of small bull terrier) and I felt and feel for him always…This is sort of a closure story (part 1 must be gentle but part 2 will b wild and rough, promise…). English is not my native language, so b easy while commenting. Anyone interested for proof reading ;) Part 1 Beginning Finally. Me and my wf finally got scholarships to USA as post doctorates! I am bit older but somehow they squeezed me in, so we r going together and will spend whole year at New England college. My wf will work at one college (Agricultural) while I will be at another one (Technical sciences). We have prepared everything for a long absence; our friend will take care for our plants and apartment and we finally went to USA. I was very happy, but from the beginning had something else on my mind, not just science and papers (slutty me…). So, we came and settled, labs r great, people too, and we worked for a 6 months till vacation time. Wf had experimental setup with plants, so she couldn’t go to a vacation (vegetation period was too long) and I decided to go by myself since I couldn’t help her in her lab. I was sad, but, as I told u, I had other things on my mind, from the beginning, had to visit my old friend. From the beginning we bought a car and I decided to visit…Nebraska (Bill nd I both like Lady Gaga… nd now u know why the name of this story and state ;) Why Nebraska, wf asked me? Well, who do u know who visited that state? I said, I am well known for doing unusual things and why not visiting Nebraska? She was puzzled, but said take care and make lots of pics. Summer came so I started my car and start burning tires to Nebraska and his city Columbus. It was a nice drive, I enjoyed very much. To other drivers seeing my smiling face was a bit peculiar, but I treasured my secret ;) U r familiar with Fred? My butt plug, pink one, who finally had his opportunity to fulfill his master from the very beginning of this journey. So, I was driving and with every mile closer, my excitement was growing. Had to stop at deserted area several times and to wank myself to release the tension, and also to have some fun with Rob, my new exciting toy. Though I never thought bout having outdoor and risky fun, riding Rob naked in the woods was a nice change from the usual way. Of course, I licked my cum after wanking, it’s a shame to waste it, especially since I like the taste and texture in my mouth… After few days of driving, riding my toys and spending nights in motels, I finally came to Nebraska, Columbus ;). Finding him wasn’t hard thing when u have navigation system, though driving to his house in peace? Completely different thing, my hands were shaking, palms sweating, not an easy thing for me to do… Found his house in the suburbia, where everything is nice on the outside and u don’t know what is happening inside. Felt like a stalker and the feeling was not nice. I am direct person, open and sitting and waiting in the shadows is not something I like or do. Still I have his cell phone in mine, so I called him. After his Yes, my heart stopped a bit, but find the strength to cool down, will he recognize my voice? Is this St. Mary The Virgin hospital please? – I asked. There was a second of silence and I cloud even see big question marks round his head, and he said, No, u made a mistake, u should dial ur number again. Is that a suspicious sound in his voice (nd after so long time, I enjoyed in his voice, how I missed him!)? After all, how many phone calls in US do u have with a speaker with Slavic accent? Politely I said, Thank u, excuse me and have a nice day…that’s the only thing I could say. While I was sitting nd trying to calm myself, saw his wife taking a car and driving off. Not a sign of him, but at least, he (I thought, am I lucky guy or what?) would b alone. Lots of things were running through my head when I saw his garage doors opening for the second time. He went out with a grass mower. This is my first sight of him after we talked on skype few years ago! Since it is summer, he was in shorts, only shorts (and I could see his bulge from my car, happy day!). Still, his body looks great, tanned (too much for me, but sometimes I am also over burned), moderately hairy chests, few days beard and nice lips…my cock was hard in a second. He started to mow his front yard, few times looking across the street but he didn’t pay special attention to me sitting in a car. I decided, fuck, its time to finally move on, so with my sweaty hands I opened the doors and stepped out the car (bfore had to fix my cock, making it less visible), took my presents for him and started to walk (trying to act nonchalant) towards him. At one point he noticed me, looking to me, and I looked back to him. I saw in his eyes something…was it a spark? Anger? Surprise? Couldn’t tell, so I came closer to him. Didn’t know how I looked like, but I know myself, cant hide my feelings, I was smiling all the way (nervous smile). Does he think I am a mad man? His lips didn’t move at start, but in one moment, he started to smile. Eyes were not following his smile 100 % though, they had little bit of anger in the background. I said, Hi stranger. He returned, Hello u little bridge burning fucker! Though I sensed a bit of anger in his voice, he was happy to see me. What r u doing here? – he asked me but with a wider smile and warmth in his eyes. I came to do some science, but also have (even more) important things to do. – I said looking to him. He said, Well I am glad that u came, so I could brake ur bones, don’t u know what u did to me? How did u hurt me? – his voice was not warm nor his smile. I said, Yes, I know what I did to u, but u must also understand me, I treasured our friendship and thought it is all over since we hardly spoke…nd u mustn’t think that was easy to me. With our friendship, one part of me died. – I said. Hope we can talk bout this. – I added with sound of hope in my voice. Well, better we go inside, don’t want to neighbors see me having a fight with u. – he said but I knew he didn’t think that way. We went inside, he first, while I was looking at him, his back, legs and back. He arouses me still, after all this time, well, he was the first guy I opened and he has a special place inside of me. He opened the door and let me in. After closing, we just stood there, in his house (k**s were finished college and started their own families) looking 2 each other. Not speaking at all. Then he made his move, first. Opened his arms and said – Come on little fucker, want to squeeze ur life out! But I knew he doesn’t mean that, so we hugged, hugged for a long time, I felt his skin, his hairs and warmth of his body…I felt like giant burden fell of my chests. We parted nd I gave him presents (Croatian tie, well we invented that and customized golf balls – he is a passionate golfer and kicks asses) and he started to laugh. He understands my sense of humor well, nd I like that. We started to talk, drinking beer…and at one moment he started to smile to me. I asked him why r u smiling? I can hardly take u seriously with that hard on u r having! – he said and I looked down and what could I see? Had a huge erection and wet spot on my pants from all precum I was leaking! All the time he didn’t say anything to me bout that, and I was so concentrated on our talk that I didn’t realize I was so hard! Felt so ashamed, but he said Its Ok, love to see that cock of yours, I missed that sight to b honest. With this words he stood up and came closer to me, sat near me nd kissed me, firmly. Real guys kiss, kiss I wanted to be real for so many years! I felt his tongue touching mine, playing, while I surrendered completely. Didn’t want to close my eyes, wanted to see him, wanted to remember this moment for ever. We kissed for a few minutes nd our hand were not standing still, he touched my body, I touched his, his nipples, his hairy chests, his stomach and finally my hand went down to his bulge, touching it gently but couldn’t wait no more, my hand slide in his briefs, touching his cock for the first time, stroking him, smearing his precum all over him. I couldn’t resist, I licked my fingers first, licking his sweet precum, enjoying in taste, then offered him to try it. He kissed my fingers, licked them cleaning all of his precum remains and then he kissed me back. I tasted his lips and felt his precum taste and that was so erotic and hot to me, specially since I wanted to taste him for a long long time. Don’t want to b a breaker – he said – but expecting wife quite soon, and she would b quite surprised I she finds us sucking and fucking (just the image of us doing that almost made me cum). U must leave, but bfore that, where did u stay? Rodeway inn – I said, hardly catching my breath. He said Ok, I ll c u there this evening. R u alone? – he asked. Yes, I said. Ok, be ready for me tonight – he said with a special look in his eyes. Tonight will b sl**pless night I thought. We rise up nd went to the doors when he suddenly pressed me and started to kiss me again and again. I felt his boner against my leg and his hand started to stroke mine over my pants. Precum stain become wider and wider, but I didn’t mind it. Not at all. I gave him my room number and left his house, with a boner and wet stain on my pants I tried to hide. Felt so excited, can I wait for him in this state? Had to go to motel to prepare myself for him…