Are there men who like a bbw? SeXStoRY

When I was young I have to admit that I had a smokin body and a great sex drive. I really enjoyed my sex life. After my ex and I divorced I did the internet dating thing and had more sex. I dated about 5 men in the next 5 years and again really enjoyed my sex life. But after a tragedy in my life I stopped. My 105lb 5'3" body balloned up to 175 pounds. I was used to being so slim so my new body disgusted me. So I lost all faith in myself and stopped dating. I wanted sex but I didn't think any man would ever look at me and want me. So for the next 5 years I remained celibate. I used to joke that I was a 'born again virgin'. But secretly I really missed being with a man. Now I am at a point where I'm starting to wonder if there is a man out there who would like my chubby - curvatious body. After surfing through xhamster I came to realize that some men do indeed like a larger body. It got me thinking that maybe it's time to put myself back out there and start enjoying a healthy sex life again. Now I fantasize about my first-time (after 5 years)I watch the videos of men masturbating and read the stories and I long to feel a mans cock inside me once again. I dream of that moment when I finally feel that warm, wet hardness thrust inside me. I have sooooo missed that. I wonder if any man would enjoy that 'first again' moment with me. If he would feel good being the man to finally satisfy me with what I have been longing for. I'm not really a sl**p-around kind of girl so I dream of finding a guy that cares about me as a friend and we develop a friends with benefits kind of thing. I don't think I would want a one night stand anymore. I don't even know if theres men like that out there anymore,... who would love to just be friends and laugh and hang out and have lots of sex,.... It's a whole different ballgame now isn't it? But I'm going to hold on to the fantasy that there is just that man out there who would love to initiate me back into the world of great sex! I don't know if he's out there but I'm going to have a lot of fun dreaming about it