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THE UNTOLD TRUTH This is neither a science fiction, not an erotic story. It is just me writing for myself. I should have told her long back……….. The story dates back to 1999, I was in IX Standard. I am from a small town called H in India, a very introvert and shy person by nature. During those days, we used to go to tuition classes. My father arranged a teacher for Literature, so did the parents of my friends. So, we went there, first day at tuitions. Our timing was from 5-7PM. And there was another school, which has the girls (yeah, even I smirked the first day), who had tuitions from 3-5PM. It was one day, when I saw her. God, she was pretty. I, with my friends, had just arrived for the classes and she and her friends were leaving. I looked at her and just stood there for a while, because I have never ever seen something as beautiful as this. One of my friends pinched me, and smirkly asked, ‘Like her, eh?’ I was caught red-handed. LOL, I tried to play cool. I said kinda maybe… He just laughed because he knew, m too afraid to speak with girls. Nevertheless, the whole news go spread like fire, thanks to my friends, and the whole class now knew, I had a thing for her. I did not know what was happening. Since I saw her, something in me changed. Deep inside, I feel home when I see her. I loved the way she smiled and she had a bob-cut hair, I loved it too. She was small and petite. Every way, I want to project her, I see her as a perfect lady for me. So, the year passed by and we were promoted to Standard X. Phew, I remember that year, it was the year of Matriculation and everyone’s parents just wanted their k**s to study, study and study. Yuck… The only good thing of being promoted to Standard X was, the tuition teacher decided to teach in one batch instead of doing it separate for boys and girls. This means, I can see her more. This went on, day by day, it is then, and I felt the punch that I have fallen for her. I, however, thought that I will propose to her, the day I become something. We saw each other, hardly talked and this is how days passed. What a fool I was, thinking the time will wait for me and I will roll my dice and the world would be at my feet. Oh well, the day of exam came, we all studied and studied, gave exams and waiting patiently the results. This excitement about her had sort of died out. We are now big boys, enrolled to Senior School. So, I went to a different place for the Senior School and she went somewhere else. I was hoping, she would stay. Well, two years passed, just like that and she was pretty much off my mind. It was one fine day, I went to give the exam for enrollment in Engineering, poof, there she is, two seats behind me. I understood, this exam is going on trashes. LOL! Well, I wrote what I had to write, but my mind was there. Strangely, she finished her paper and just felt. I was left stranded there. There goes my chance again. I was too scared to speak to her. The moment was there and I just let it get away. Dammit! Well, again, I left to study engineering. I got through the exam, but she did not. Nevertheless, a new place, a new opportunity. Again, the same thing happened, her memory seems to fade away. One day, while I was chatting with my new friends there, we were discussing girls. So, my turn came and I blurted out her name. One of them asked me her full name, so I told him... He said he knew her and lo! I axed my own foot. The news again spread around and everyone started to tease about it. Kind of an embarrassment. But it was all cool, because I knew, they are just saying, nothing changes. So, I had to pass my 4 years with this turmoil. LOL! I was glad in a way that I passed out, at least, now, no one is going to bother me about her. I didn’t know where she lived, what she did, if she had a BF by now... Whatever! It was not bothering me in any way I guess (yep, I was wrong again). So, I came to present city in search of job, got one and was kind of happy. Earning my own money, a self-sufficient person, going to pubs every weekend, full on big city corporate life, lol!! But deep down, she was still in my mind. It is then, I thought, the only way to get rid of this is to find another girl. So, I tried, well, couple of times. Nothing worked. Probably because, I was searching her in everyone. If only, I could have got a replica . I even called her once, well I was d***k that night (such a blunder), and bluntly proposed. She was infuriated and said she already have someone in her life. Well, it was expected. And, I sheepishly apologized and chided away wishing her luck. (I got her number from a common friend though). But, somehow, I was not agreeing to this. I tried to gather knowledge from our common friends. Everyone said they had no clue. So, I thought maybe, she got shocked and acted in a way to get me off. I didn’t mind. How can anyone expect to blurt out on phone, that too when d***k, and on top expect a girl to express same feelings with whom he hardly talked? Well days passed, so did nights. One day, one of my friends called me and said he had news for me. Honestly, what he said, never ever came across my mind. He said, she was in the same city as his and he had talked to her. Without giving another thought, I applied for leave from office and booked train ticket. All set to see her   So the day was set to meet her. I asked my friend, who is a friend of hers too, to ask if she was single or in a relationship in a subtle way. Well, so we met, formal greetings, blah blah, which is when he popped up the question. She said she was with someone, but the way she responded, was more like she was trying to avoid me again, incase, I jump again. I didn’t find the sense of joy once should be while in a relationship. Heck, what do I know about real relationship? I have never been on one to my knowledge. The talks ended and it was time to go home. Now, that I was in dual mind on if she is single or not, the ‘not’ part seemed more like convincing. Because, she was a drop dead beauty and being in a big city, she ought to have one. Yeah, it seemed more convincing. Well, I came back to my city and the work life started. One fine day, I see a friend request from Facebook. WOW! It was from her. I was so elated. We chatted there, talking about here and there. Oh I forgot to add, I no longer had her number, which I asked her if it is ok if I called her. To which, she said sure, not a problem and gave me her number. I wanted to call her immediately, but was hesitant. After a few days, I gathered the courage and called her. Well, she was not rude anymore (remembering my last phone call, phew!). I started calling her every alternate weekend, but never expressed my love. She inadvertently hinted that there is indeed someone in her life. So, I thought it is better to leave it as it is. So, I just talk to her, just casual talk. There are moments when both of us go numb, because, there are no topics to discuss. I, sometimes, even enjoy that silence. Time and tide waits for none, I learnt it the hard way. I still love her; that is my part of the story. She loves him, which is her part of the story. I have no angst or jealously towards her, she was never mine. I just love her and respect her in my own way. When people walk away from you, let them go. Your destiny is never tied to anybody who leaves you, and it doesn't mean that they are bad people. It just means that their part in your story is over. - TD Jakes I don’t know how our story is going to progress. 13 years passed by. I am just happy because, she is happy.