First Love 2. SeXStoRY

My friends at the shop continue to tease me. They tell me about the sex they've had with their boyfriends. And they tell me that I won't be able to keep it a secret once I've done it, because I will walk differently, my breasts will develop, my bottom will become flat because of the pressure on it, and my face will change. They say I will have a different expression once I've let my boyfriend inside me. I don't know whether all that's true or not, but it worries me. I don't want everyone to know that I'm already having sex with him. I'm pretty sure that my older s****r is already no longer a virgin, but I've not noticed any real change in her appearance. You see, I saw a kondom on her bedroom dresser, and she became embarrassed when she knew I'd seen it. But she said she'd bought it at the pharmacy for a friend who was too shy to buy one. She pretends to be very strict and won't have sex until she's married. But I've seen her take her boyfriend into the long grass at the back of the house, and when they come out they are always cuddling as if something nice has happened. My s****r is perhaps a little more confident nowadays, and she's not so shy with men as she used to be. But I really haven't noticed any changes in her body. Her bottom is still nice and round. Anyway, I tell my friends that I don't want sex. But I guess that's not really true any more. I find myself thinking now about what panti to wear when I go out on a date. It's as if I'm secretly wanting him to see my panti. Even though I'm determined not to have sex with him until we're married. I never used to think about what panti to wear because I knew that no-one was going to see them anyway. I've been to see the priest, because he tells us that confession will help us all to resist temptation. It will make me more able to say "no", I hope, but whenever I've talked to him and he's asked me about my thoughts, about what kind of thoughts I'm having, it isn't long before the effects of the confession wear off and I'm having the same thoughts again. And when I go to bed, especially after I've been out on a date, I find myself putting my hands into my panti and rubbing my puki. Perhaps these feelings will go away if I try hard enough. I really hope so. Unfortunately, I'm going out with my boyfriend again tonight, and he's asked me to go to the beach with him. That usually means here that a boy is going to try to have sex with you, so I'm a little bit worried, but excited as well. You can't always see the couples having sex, but you can sometimes hear them in the darkness as they stroke and rub each others titi and puki.